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This Time Last Year

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One year ago yesterday, a Thursday night around 7:30 pm, I took a pregnancy test. It was the first month we were trying. It was the day my expected period was due. The odds were I wasn't pregnant. I took the test on a whim. I screamed when I saw the positive. I was alone at home. Andrew was at a friends house. I called my mom, my best friend at the time, and my gay. Two out of three of those people are still in my life. I didn't want to tell Andrew over the phone or via text. When he got home, he was shocked to say the least. He said "you said it wouldn't happen this fast." I honestly didn't think it would. I miscarried when I was 17 years old. Since then I have had irregular periods and been diagnosed with PCOS. They doctors told me I don't ovulate every month with the expectation that when I wanted to get pregnant, fertility pills would probably be the route we would need to go. I told those who knew, not to tell anyone because of my past and ovarian iss

I am a mother, and so much more.

I am a mother. I am a wife. I am a daughter. I am daughter-in-law. I am a little sister. I am a big sister. I am a sister-in-law. I am a cousin. I am an aunt. I am a Godmother. I am a Goddaughter. I am a niece. I am a grand-daughter. I am a Christian. I am a woman. I am a Puerto-Rican. I am a friend. I am pro-life. I am a writer. I am strong. I am beautiful. I am a comedian. I am a skeptic. I am sarcastic. I am harsh. I am realistic. I am faithful. I am a believer. I am tattooed. I am a college graduate. I am a pet parent. I am an observer. I am sensitive. I am proud. I am loved. I am happy. I am sad. I am broken-hearted. I am a fighter. I am a chef. I am a bargainer. I am an artist. I am loud. I am terrified. I am fearful. I am loyal. I am a loss mom. I am Oliver's Mom.  That is my most important role.  My son is my biggest accomplishment.  That being said, I am all of these things. Yet, I have lost so many because no one knows what to say. Everyone has hardships, but tha