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Dear Oliver

Dear Oliver - Today we had the NT scan for your little brother/sister and everything looks beautiful. This is the scan where I found out that you were sick. I was so devastated. I had fallen madly in love with you already - and they were already telling me you would be leaving me sooner than I was expecting. When we had to say goodbye to you, I thought getting pregnant again would help heal my pain. I thought I would be filled with an extreme amount of joy and want to share it with the world. But when that day came, there was a lack of emotion. Almost a disbelief. I had already set myself up for the worst. I became sad, because this baby is not you. I love this baby just as much as I love you, but knowing you won't be here to share this breaks my heart all over again. This journey will be full of emotional ups and downs, but I know that you are here with us and watching over him/her. You are a strong and amazing boy, being a Big Brother will not be hard for you. This baby will