Our Life with Oliver

[a bow or arc of prismatic colors appearing in the heavens opposite the sun  and caused by the refraction and reflection of the sun's rays in drops of rain.] Our rainbow arrived February 5 2014. Weighing 6 pounds 15 ounces & measuring 19 inches long. Her name is Olive Juanita. We have longed for this baby girl to arrive long before she was even conceived. We were looking for a rainbow after our storm. For a light to come out of our darkness. We were blessed with the beginning of this gift about 6 months after Oliver went home. I was 39 weeks and 5 days pregnant when we went in to be induced with our little girl. A much anticipated wait. Although Olive was healthy during the entire pregnancy, doesn't mean this was an easy pregnancy journey. It seemed to at times prove to be more challenging than our 34 week and 5 day journey with Oliver. With Oliver we knew what to expect - we had learned, accepted and prayed. With Olive - it was as if I carried a dark cloud above u...

Dear Oliver, I wanted to write to you the day your sister was born. I have been so overwhelmed with mourning your passing and praising your sisters arrival. My emotions are all over the place. Your baby sister has been with us for one week now and you have been with us the entire time. I love telling her about her brother. She is so blessed to have you in her life. Her birth was a great experience and I know that is because of you. You were my focal point. Every contraction I thought of you. I thought of how beautiful you are, how brave and strong you were during our journey together. You were my strength during that time. And now you are my strength now more than ever. From the moment she was laid down on my chest my heart has somehow been able to feel broken yet so full at the same time. As I look at her and gaze into her beautiful eyes I can't help but dream of you being here with us.  I know you are in a perfect place - where you are healthy and happy. I just want to brin...