Our Life with Oliver

I can always feel Oliver with me. I know he is around me. Especially since Olive came about. During her pregnancy and now that she is here, I know he is constantly with us. Whenever I hear or see his name, I know he is saying  'Hi mama - I love you'. I love getting signs from him. They give me butterflies. Jaxin never met Oliver. He was too little to understand what was going on. He does know now that the blue bear next to the urn is the Oliver bear. He has seen pictures of Oliver, as they are all over the house. With all of that, it's never been like him to talk about Oliver or say things like what he has recently. ........ About a week ago, he looks at me, points at my belly and says Nina. Oliver is in your belly and we need to get him out. {side note: he says Oliver like Oliber so it's even more adorable} I recently miscarried another baby, so I like to think and strongly believe that Oliver and this new baby in Heaven are still very much in my pr...

The first day of 2015 has been great so far. .......... The past few years have been such a roller coaster for  my family  and I know it will continue to be just that. So many new life changes and  welcoming  new members to the family. In 2014 we welcomed our beautiful daughter Olive Juanita. Our beautiful rainbow baby. She has brought us much joy and love and we are so blessed. We are still mourning the loss of Oliver, but I feel him with me everyday. With Olive being here, she has made his presence even stronger. He is always with us and in our hearts. Our bond as mother and son is still very active, and I am beyond thankful for that. We have another angel in Heaven that we lost December 1st. As my cousin told me a few weeks ago, I have a army of angels in Heaven. I am still very much learning how to cope with our losses and how to survive through them. I have been blessed with an amazing support system of our family and close friends. I have ...