You Were In My Dreams..

You were in my dreams last night
It felt so good to see you

You were in my dreams last night
It felt so good to hold you

You were in my dreams last night
These moments felt so real

You were in my dreams last night
These moments I will cherish

You were in my dreams last night
It felt so good to kiss you


You were in my dreams last night
It felt so good to see you



I love you Oliver. 
I can't wait for our next dream date. 


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