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Our First Wedding Anniversary

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We were married 11.30.12 We chose this date, because this was Oliver's due date. Marriage wasn't something we were planning. Our son had another plan. I could not have a better person to be my partner on this journey God has given us. He is an amazing husband and even better father. When we found out that Oliver may not be with us as long as we had hoped for we decided we would get married. No engagement and no announcement. We sat on the couch and decided that his due date would be the most meaningful day. Another way to celebrate our son and to show him appreciation for making us a family . On this day I am filled with great emotion. I met my husband 2.6.11 and never imagined that we would have had a beautiful son and a precious daughter on the way less than three years later. I thought meeting him was by chance, but after having our son, I know now nothing is by chance. God had a plan for us and he put our wonderful friends as tools in that introduction. I feel so bless

As if he was still here..

Being pregnant with your Rainbow (a healthy baby after a loss baby), is an emotional roller coaster, on top of the already hormonal battle of pregnancy. You are feeling every single emotion at once and at times can feel guilty for all of these feelings. It is a normal question for any pregnant woman to be asked - is this baby number one, or how many other children do you have. Sometimes I answer that Olive is my second and tell the person about how Oliver is no longer here and all that he has accomplished in my life and others. Which then breaks my heart and theirs . This past week I was asked these questions by two different people. I just couldn't bring myself to break someone else's heart and I wanted to feel "normal". So I said that this is my second and my little boy just turned one. Went into the conversation that I am lucky to have a boy and a girl so close in age. I simply agreed and kept a smile on my face. For those few moments I got to feel as if he was sti